Year of the Rabbit Bearista (99th edition) ☺

FINALLY! I was able to grab hold of the Year of the Rabbit Bearista (I was not so lucky with the Tiger edition last year)! :)  My heart melted when I saw the toy and I had to have it.  Again there is a pair for this year, but I just don't dig the female version, unless given as a gift. weeh :)

sitting on my office laptop

with the chinese character for Rabbit and year 2011

Cute cute cute!! :)

Mano Po

New Year's Eve. 2010.




I was prepping myself to meet the NEW YEAR… at the office! tsk tsk.  The bank required my team to be in the premises, a day before 2011 begins, and as good soldiers, we complied.  Afterall, it's our bread and butter, no choice really, even if we stomp our feet hard and make tantrums.  hehe


I noticed that Jechel was not around when I arrived, which was unusual, as she comes in way ahead of me.  We are allowed flexibility in our work schedules as long as we deliver our outputs on time, but still it got me wondering where she is.  I decided to text her after 2 hrs.


'Where na you? :)'


'Papunta palang dyan. hehe'


I didn't bother to reply back, I've driven my point already by that text message.


She had once confided me that she was having trouble with her dad because of her work schedule.  You see (as all accountants know and live by), we dread the coming of month end, our peak days where we turn into vampires and embrace midnight til dawn, so to speak.  It's reality and that's what our craft demands of us.  It's either we embrace it or jump out of the bandwagon and shift course.  Now back to Jechel.


We just finished our dinner at Lorenzo's Way G5 (yummy and more yummier when you know it's shouldered by the bank hehehe). when her phone rang.


'Yes Ama?' (which is grandmama in Chinese)


'Ni yaw yaw, shaw sha, how how, di ko gets toh' (was the response as apparently she had it on loudspeaker)


'Ama, bo be ni ya ya shaw shaw le!' (again, I'm making this up as I only know little Chinese! hahahaha, trip lang, walang basagan please)


'sha sha tigas ng ulo mo blah blah how how' (I think I got this part right, you can't blame me, it was on loudspeaker!)


'Ama, p*tang*#a naman eh! sha kong koy le! abutske ek ek ek!' (again, made up hahaha Jechel was literally cursing her grandmama!)


Jechel let out a shriek and slammed her phone down.  Me and Ferns kept mum.  Her phone rang again and the series of Chinese talks went down the drain and again, she slammed the phone.  When I thought the coast was clear, Ferns and I talked with her.


Ferns: 'di mo ba sinabihan lola mo that you're at work?'


Jechel: 'yun nga eh. Nagpaalam na nga ako sa kang daddy ko na di ako makapunta kasi may trabaho, di pa rin gets!' (imagine the heavy Chinese intonation that you hear from Mano Po the movie, she has got that, cute hahaha)


Hush: 'eh bakit ganun? Alam naman pala nila eh'


J: 'ewan ko sa kanila at sa baluktot nila na pamamaraan.  Keso pangit daw na yung babae na gagabihan umuwi.  Aba hinde naman ako nagpapakapokpok ah!  Buti sana naging pok pok, di naman ah!'


I looked at Ferns.  We knew we had to lighten up the mood.  She continued to air out her frustration.


J:  'Hay ang hirap talaga ng buhay ko! Arrrgh!  Naging mabait naman akong anak ah, nag.aral ako sa Chinese school, kinuha ko Accountancy sa LaSalle at naging board passer, ano pa ba kailangan nila, ha!  Pati lovelife ko pinakialam nila.  Kesyo pangit daw na hinawalayan ko yung Intsik na x ko, ano nalang daw masasabi ng pamilya ni x'


F: 'Bakit ba, sila ba namili ni x para sa yo?'


J: 'Di naman, nakilala ko sya sa school pero still, anong pakialam nila sa lovelife ko.  Porke't nagsine lang kami ni Martin (her new Pinoy date) nagalit na, malandi daw ako kasi bago ko palang kilala, sine na agad.  Hello, 2010 na kaya, hinde kapanahon nila noh at everyone's doing it.  It's not as if I'm going to marry him.'


F: 'Alam mo Jechel, walang halong biro, mahirap maging mahirap.  Swerte ka nga may magulang ka na mayaman at di ka pinababayaan.  Iniisip lang nila kapakanan mo.'


J: 'Gustohin mong di ka payagan maging kayu ni Kian?? Swerte nga kayong dalawa kasi you have your own life!'


H: 'Ako, ok lang!  Pag may di gusto magulang ko, I'll say, money down! hahahahahaha or bilhan nyo ko ng Audi'


F: 'I agree!'


J: 'heh, mukha kayong pera! Aanhin nyo yung pera or kotse kung di naman kayo malayang gumala aber?'


I sensed that she was about to cry and I went near her.


H: 'Alam mo Jechel, maybe you should place yourself in their shoes.  Believe me, I used to be a rebel to my parents.  Just imagine yourself as a parent, your best interest is at their minds, and all they get from you is to contradict their orders, nakaka.gana ba yun?'


This time, she was crying already :(  I had to console her.


J: 'I'm so tired na of them..'


H: 'Alam mo, don't fight fire with fire.  Sila ang nasa taas na position.  Naturally, they think they know better.  Fight fire with water.  It doesn't help either that you curse your grandmama!  Don't be too defensive agad.  Hear them out, let them scream if they want, but keep mum, until they cool off their heads.  Ika nga, wag mo salubungin ang galit nila.  Then when things clear, let them hear your opinion, but wag ka galit.  Lambingin mo sila, kulang ka lang sa lambing eh'


J: 'Paano ba Hush? Galit sila agad eh'


H: 'Example.  Your grandmama, sabihin mo, Grandmama, wag na kayo magalit, may urgent lang kelangan ang bangko at kelangan nila ako dito.  I'll make it up pag nagkita tayo. And to your dad, Oh, eto daddy, sabi ng boss ko, agahan ko na uwi ko, mga around 10pm nalang daw, total pareho naman if uuwi din ako ng 7pm, 10pm din dating ko dahil sa traffic.  Nakikipagcompromise na boss ko, wag ka na magalit.  Ganon dapat Jechel'


F: 'Tama! at sayang yung angpao at mana iha!! hahahaha'


J: 'Sa kanila na yung mana noh!'


H: 'Oh, ayan ka na naman.  Wag ka nga matigas ang ulo.  Magpakabait ka at lambingin mo sila. at tama si Ferns, sayang ang yaman!! Mahirap maging mahirap ngayon noh!!'


I really hope that I made sense to Jechel.  Not at all times you win a fight by being rebellious and righteous.  Sometimes, sometimes, you humble yourself, let them hand out the first strike, let them make you bleed, if you must, and then, kill them with sweetness. hehehe  hay naku, at kung may pera involved, lalong lagyan mo pa ng asukal para mamatay sila sa lambing mo!! hahaha


HAPPY NEW YEAR hushkins!!! mwah mwah to all!

My SMC day - Mewi Christmas, Hushkins!

Location: Baguio City


I decided to accompany Ex-honey off to his hometown, Baguio City for the Christmas season.   I had not much to do in the metropolis coz I have work after the 25th, so I figured going home to Cebu for the holidays would be onerous and expensive on my end.  Now that I'm part of the SMC gang (go figure), totodohin ko na ang pagiging malamig ng Christmas ko. hehehe  I'll make up to my family next year, promise. :(


A lot of my friends have been asking me why spend this day with Ex.  I honestly don't know. Do I still have feelings for him?  Yah, definitely, but not of love and lust.. uhm, probably I could reconsider the last part. hahaha Kidding.  For once, I just want to go with the flow.  No hidden agenda, just plain adventure.  I also would like to feel, just for once, how the summer capital spends its holidays.  Cold. hehehe  So what I'm feeling now is cold physically and emotionally, so in time, I'll come to appreciate the warmth that special someone may give to me someday. weeeeh :)


I'll end on this note (SMART bro sucks here in Baguio) and wish every one of my hushkins a merrily merry Christmas!!  May you enjoy this day and treasure the love ones besides you. *Hugs*

Facelift

Hushkins, can you feel the breeze of Christmas-y in the air? :)  The strong gust of wind that sends shivers down your spine and a corresponding desire to just hug someone and feel their warmth?   Ahhhhh… or baka lang kasi malakas electric fan ko kaya I'm shivering? hahahahaha :p

Rori and I discussed over the phone that my blog needs a facelift in time for the holidays.  Afterall, 3 more days before the big day!!  He said that the change will still bear the same theme (candles - for reasons I don't know why, but I sort of like it), but with a touch of the holiday spirit.  I gave him my password and I saw the new lay-out! :)  It's sooooo nice and warm and comforting to look at and the golden touch has always been my favorite motif.  I soo love gold and anything that resembles to the color hehehehe 

Well, I'm going to brag about Rori's work of artistry (again!) here.  He's such a genius in his craft and me on my craft also. hahahahaha hmf.


Happy holidays, hushkins, and happy thoughts! :)


PS - I soo love to go back to bed but but but!

Small Blog World

I've been meaning to write this post but I was hesitant at first.  I wanted to confirm from Ex-honey if my suspicions were correct and he affirmed it! hahahaha


Apparently, one of the few hushkins who bothers to read my rants in life is an ex of Ex! hahaha :) What a small world indeed.  Ex-honey doesn't know (or I think he doesn't know, rather) of this blog but I emailed him the picture and asked why I had his ex' picture.  I nonchalantly replied that I stumbled upon his ex' blog.  He asked whether he was mentioned in his blog, I replied I haven't gone through all of his entries but will check. hehe


So to you dear hushkin, cheers or jeers?!  I am pondering whether we should compare notes if we had similar issues with our Ex! hahahaha It made me realize that we are all connected in this circle of life (wish I know how to incorporate the song from Lion King after this post! tsk tsk).


Hush, hush for now*

Puto and Tsokolate

I forced myself to wake up at 430am to attend the Dawn Mass.  I've been meaning to complete the 9 mornings and make my wish come true (tough luck) but I was able to attend only today.  Hay.


It's not really that I believe in the wishing part (really!) but I find attending to tradition gives me solemnity inside and out.  I have warm thoughts on my previous endeavors to complete the novena masses, and I could recall that I achieve this when I was about to take my licensure examination (hidden agenda?).  I was glad that my prayers were granted that time :)


I recalled that mama used to wake me up when I was younger to attend these masses.  I would be excited and even took a bath in freezing water back in Cebu.  The main agenda wouldn't be the mass in particular but the people attending to it.  I could remember anticipating whether RD was around, or checking if there's someone new in town.  I've cross fingers that I'd bump into someone like Piolo just like the movie he starred in with Donita! I still have the tenacity to scan the people around up to this day though! hehe


I would also look forward to what I would wear during the mass.  It was my chance to grab those jackets I have so I could flaunt it, as they are virtually useless with Cebu's scorching day heat!  I still do that to this day :)


It gives me comfort to see the effort made by lots of people to wake up early dawn to vigilantly complete these masses.  Yes, some might drowse off in the middle of the mass, which I got irritated before, but I realized, I shouldn't judge them.  They too might have made some sacrifice, and they may be nurses, call agents etc that came off from a shift too tired physically but the intention is there.  I am just glad that I have the opportunity to commune with Him on his big day! :)


OF course, I also anticipated before my mama's tsokolate matched with puto (not the puto here in Manila but the sticky white rice in Cebu)! Yum yum :9  I had to settle with the suman sold by manang outside the church, which was quite ok for my discriminating taste. hehehe


I miss tuloy my mama :( haaaaaaay.


Hush, hush for now**

Romeo's Planet

After so many months of abstinence, I visited G4M, or what is now known as Planet Romeo.  I could never get used to the name and I find G4M easier to pronounce than PR, but hey, that's not the point of my blog tonight.  When I re-activated my account, lo and behold who I saw.. Ex-honey.


I just couldn't describe how I felt about it, but it was weird, and because I couldn't get over it, I'm going to write and try to digest why I felt weird about it.


I first met Ex through this channel (and first seen him in Bed, but that's another story), and back then we had agreed that we deactivate our respective accounts because, and ideally, we had each other.  I've always believed that G4 is a hunting ground and I could attest that will always be the cause of quarrel between 2 persons who've decided to commit to each other.  I kept my end of the deal.


Curiosity got the better side of me and I should have listened to old lore that curiosity kills the cat, because came December of last year, when I opened my account, he was there.  His lame excuse then was he was seeking for clients for his photography work.  He retorted, why was I also online and responded to really check if he kept his other side of the bargain, which was rebutted to trust issues, etc etc.  We decided to settle amicably.


When the road became tough for us sometime May of this year (which happened to be our anniversary), and we were on that cool off stage, Ferns showed me something which will forever scar my broken heart.  Ex online @ PR.  Ferns said he had seen him online for some time now and that he just kept mum about it and thinking it was the demise of our relationship that time, it was better that he showed it to me, so I too can move on.  It was the most terrible thing I felt.  I never thought Ex could move on that fast and I felt betrayed.  That night, I cried myself to sleep.


and because I had wanted to save the relationship (sayang kasi, one year na), I lowered my pride and asked him if it was he that was online.  Of course, he denied it and that it was some poser of his.  I wondered aloud why a picture taken from my condominium was also posted on that account, which was very recent and he couldn't give any right justification.  Ex later turned his fury on Ferns, pakilamera, 'who's he to be saint when he also goes online in PR even if he has a bf' and all the nasty remarks he blasted on Ferns.  That wasn't the issue at all.  I couldn't care less what Ferns does with his life, but mine's should be attended to.  Up to this day, I understand why Ferns detaches himself from Ex, I couldn't blame him.


Now that murky waters have cleared, and nobody to account to (Ex should not deny that it was him this time around, as he posted a new pic with his newly bought diamond necklace), I'm not sure if PR would be the right venue to start building my life.  Maybe a good hunting ground, but this time, I'll be more cautious.


Hush hush for now.