If you could read my mind

If only music could describe how one feels, this will be it for me 



♪ If you could read my mind love
  What a tale my thoughts would tell ♫
    Just like a paperback novel  ♪
  The kind that drugstores sell
  ♪ When you reach the part where the heartache comes ♫
       The hero would be you ♪
   Heroes often fail ♫


  Never thought I could feel this way ♫
 ♪  And I've got to say that I just don't get it
I don't know where we went wrong  ♫
     But the feeling's gone and I just can't get it back ♫




hush hush, hushkins

Chapter Close

I thought saying goodbye to the person I lost connection with won't hurt.. that it would be a breeze, say out my piece on why things aren't working out and why we should remain as friends, and not lovers… but it did.  I cried.  I practiced my lines perfectly while driving from Rockwell to Ortigas, but that didn't do any help.  I still cried in front of honey, I had to get some tissue before I delivered my lines.  Good memories of him swept me in the face but I know I did the right thing.. well.. I do hope I did the right thing.  I was waiting for a sign and the heavens gave it..


Bye bye honey..  I did love you.. so much.. but it just didn't work out :(  Another dream squashed..

Heaven's blessing ;)

I never thought that there would be a part 2 of The Hunt, but apparently, the heavens were pouring graces that night :)


Che.lu.  4.30am


I was drunk already.  I was dancing like there will be no tomorrow, reminiscing the good old days of carefreeness and carelessness.  I feel like dyosa that night, particularly when I tempted guys with partners to dance with me and successfully made them leave their partners.  I was sooo bad, but it felt good.




Out of the corner of my eye, Ferns seemed interested with a particularly kalbo, but because he was playing pakipot, I knew I had to do something.  I grabbed the kalbo guy and whispered loudly, 'Hi, you look cute. My friend Angelo (Ferns' screenname) is interested in you.' 


He smiled back, 'Really?  My friend Eric is interested in him too' and points to a dark-skinned, you-would-know he's gay guy.  I looked at Ferns.  He grimaced.  He knew that Eric was into him, but he's simply not his type.


I turned to Mike. 'I doubt he likes your friend. hahaha kayo nalang, mas bagay kayo'


'hahahaah Angelo seems aloft, but cute, but.. I don't want to offend Eric'


'Trust me, Angelo likes you better'


But because Mike was afraid that Eric might get offended if he danced with Angelo, Mike stayed a safety distance away from Angelo.


'Tell you what, I'll get your number and I'll text you Angelo's number.  Angelo likes to be courted and you better be the one to make a move', I yelled (loud music was blasting from the speakers).


'hahaha ok' and smilingly gave his number.


That's where I noticed the cute guy accompanying Mike and Eric.  He was silently sipping his juice (??!), with a cute Oakley glasses on, wearing a grey (later learned it was green tsk tsk) shirt and had a whitish-pinkish complexion and very chinito.  Sayang, I couldn't make a move towards him as I was still dancing with Lem.  Marunong naman ako rumespeto sa kasayaw ko. hahahaha


I thought it was the end of me and that Chinito guy.  Wrong :)


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Hushkins, I'll end on this note, coz I'm pretty sleepy already.   I'm so yawning already :)  Night night! :)

It's beginning to feel like Christmas

Along Paseo de Roxas (very near my workplace (wink, wink)

On our way to grab some dinner at Glorietta, I can't help but admire the beautiful facade that Makati has turned into :)  Christmas decors adorn Makati and Paseo de Roxas, depicting dropping icicles or, since we are in the Philippines, rain. hehehe 




It is truly beginning to feel like Christmas.. hopefully a happy one for all of us :)




Will be posting more beautifully decorated spots in the future hehee

Makati Ave

96th Edition Bearista ☼☼

It's Christmas-y as Starbucks released it's season's edition bearista. :)   It wears  green and red scarf around it and has a cute black hat.  This is the guy bearista, a female one comes along too, but I didn't buy it coz its too.. hmmm.. female and pretty. ehehhe  This one's too cute to pass up.


Love love love my collection :)

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Makati Office.  Nov 1.


to.toot.


'Baby.'


It was honey. 


It was month end and I was rushing things to meet timelines.  I was engrossed with the reports that I forgot to respond to him.


'Matagal ka pa ba sa office, baby?'


Every month end, I usually go home around 1 to 2am.  It was still 1130pm, too early, besides I had some issues that need to be resolved immediately.  I was busy following through queries left unresolved via Microsoft Office Communicator.  I find OC very useful and saves lots of overseas phone bills. 


'Medyo hon.  Month-end eh.'


'Mga what time mo ko sundin, baby?'


I normally fetch him up every first day of the week so he could sleep at my pad the entire week.


'Give me an hour or two.. ano gawa ni honey habang walang work?' (I was being pa-cute)


'Nagmalling si honey, then nakita nya na close pala ;(' (We were doing baby talk hihihi)


'Ahhh..' was my short reply.  I was again concentrating on my work.


'May surprise ako kay baby =)' 


'Talaga?  Ano yun?' was my nonchalant reply.


'Basta surprise nga eh.  Ma.ha.happy si baby.'


'Hehe"  was my oblivious response again.  Month-end and I need to submit everything by 12mn.  Bwisit na timelines.


'Text mo nalang ako pag pa-uwi ka na ha'


'Cge.'


-o -- oo -- oo -- o -


Fast forward.


'Baba ka na.  I'm here na'


'Ok baby'


It was drizzling outside.  Honey came down from his condo wearing a beige trenchcoat.  Fashionista??  He was sporting his new glasses made of wood.  He bought that at People are People, but the trenchcoat I can't recall.


'Bago coat mo?' I demanded when he entered Baby Blake (my car's name).


'Hinde baby.. kasama kita when I bought this'


'Parang hinde.  Shopping ka na naman!'


'Hinde noh.  Kasama kita nito noh.  Anyways, my surprise ako sayo.'  He was being pa-cute.


'Ano-ano yun?'  I was acting like a dog eager for his bone, tongue hanging out! hahaha


Honey took something out from his manly bag (manly but more of gayly hahaha).  Hopia.


'Ano yan??' I said indignantly.


'Hopia.  Di ka man lang happy'. He was pouting.


At the back of my mind, hopia??  Ano yan, hopia like me too?? Ngek.


'Ngek', unable to suppress my disappoint. 'Lagay mo please ulit sa bag mo, maya kainin natin'


'Hmf, di ka man lang na happy'  


Then honey took something out again from his ungodly man bag (hehe).  It was still in a plastic shopping bag.  


'May surprise ako ulit'


Honey pulled out the content of the plastic bag.  A shirt.  A muscle shirt with intricate designs on it.


'Yan mahilig ka sa mga bar shirt, binili ko for you'.


I was struck speechless.  Honey seldom does that.  I didn't know what to say.


'Di ka man lang mag.thank you' he was glaring at me.


'Hahaha thank you honey. I love you honey.'


-o -- oo -- oo -- o -


Epilogue


One of my colleagues, Jechel, read my palm last Friday and we bought up again her results prior to the events above.  She mentioned that I am one simple guy that don't complicate things (e.g. if somebody requests me to accompany him/her, I immediately accomodate that request, without ifs and buts).  She also read the lines side of my palm that I love too much, and in loving that person, I expect too much and in the end, I get frustrated with their shortcomings.  Jechel said that it's not them who has a shortcoming, but I who needs to improve on that aspect, that I need to lower those expectations, because the people I love, the people I care for, are also humans, and as humans they also have their limits.


Insightful and true.  Maybe I should lower my expectations.. haaaaaay.

Ferns is Single

Hushkins, Ferns is officially single and I'm posting his picture if somebody out there will be interested in him.  I am being a bugaw to him, just give me 20% commission if you can secure him! hahaha kidding.

He's sad and he wants to move on from his ex.  Message me if you're interested. ;p

hush hush for now ♥ ♥ ♥