July 20
Makati City
Everything seems to go on opposite direction these days.
I haven't slept for the past 2 nights. Work is getting heavier and my bosses are up my ass, scrutinizing everything that my team does. My mama just got admitted again, this time at Chong Hua and I am at a loss on where to get the funds.. and when I thought I found somebody I can share my future with, he turned a new leaf and gave me the cold shoulders. This must be the price of beauty. Hahahaha sh3t.
'Hush, dinner with Ongkoy at Lorenzo's and desert at Chilis G5', read the SMS I got from Sheila.
Heck. I'm not one to mull over my misfortunes and pity myself, so I shutdown my office laptop and proceeded to Greenbelt. I need to find an outlet to lay down my angst and frustrations. Best pair, food and friend.
'Ongkoy noticed you looked depress these days', Sheila greeted me.
Depress was an understatement.
'He does? How'd he know?', I tried to cover up by laughing at such silly insinuations.
'You do. You might be laughing now, but the eyes reveal a lot, Hush. Let's eat and talk things through', butted-in Ongkoy. Wasn't aware he was eavesdropping!! Hmf.
Friends. They know me from head-to-foot, cover-to-cover, leaf-to-leaf. I can't, damned, hide anything from them, especially Sheila.
'Is this the guy who's making you kilig these days?'
Sheila had that accusatory look. I avoided eye-contact and instead focus my attention on the gising-gising served by the hunky waiter. I couldn't decide which would taste yummier.
'You know me, Shie. I seldom get kilig over a guy. My gahd, I'm 30 and kilig is so kindergarten!'
'But you were. You kept on texting me baya'
I stopped and looked at her.
'Awwww.. what happened, Hush? I thought you were doing well with him'
'I thought I did, Shie. I thought we hit it off well, he was my Harry Potter date and we can carry on a conversation for hours!! I showed that I am the gentleman that I can be. Gahd, I was not even after the s3x with him! I mean, honestly, I do want to f#ck him, but I am not only after that!'
'It's the people that we fancy f%cking that we fall hard, Hush. Look what happened to me and Sheila!!', interrupted Ongkoy.
I just had to laugh.
Darn. He's right.
'Yah. I shouldn't have let on that I was in to him.. but then again, I'm old enough not to play games anymore, guys. Come on, if I like the guy, why waste the time not letting him know'
'.. and what happened?', Sheila mused.
'Well, he stopped texting. Literally. He did say we'll talk soon.. This week.'
'Why didn't you demand that you talk there and then?? What's the use of prolonging things when it will all boil down to the same ending??', Sheila was reasoning out.
'Because he said, we'll talk soon, and I'm giving him that space.. and I'm probably afraid of what he's going to tell me.. and you know me Sheila, I hate drama.. or probably afraid to face the drama'
'Well, you're right, Hush. Just wait for his text. If he talks to you, that's it. If he doesn't, then there are plenty of guys still out there!', Ongkoy chuckled.
'Yah. I hate myself for getting carried away with my emotions.'
My attention was already elsewhere.
Warm. Moist. Oozing. Delectably melts in my mouth.
Somehow, it soothes the pain.
*hush, hush*
♫ Hey, good morning
Hey, it's calling ♪
♪ Hey, good morning
Watch the sun come up ♫
♪ It's calling
I want another day with you ♫ ^_^
The much anticipated white party, the fuss and excitement over this event, went backseat and this song keeps repeating in my head.
Classic.
Good morning! :)
*
hush hush*
July 12
Lunchtime, Makati
Jechel announced to the group that we would take our lunch at Savory Chicken and proceeded to show to us the free stub that offered free 16pcs shanghai rolls. I asked, are there strings attached, such as minimum purchase spent? No, she responded, as long as we eat at the restaurant.
Cool. There's one in Makati Avenue, but apparently, that one is the ORIGINAL Savory Chicken, which is different from CLASSIC Savory Chicken. That I didn't know. :(
So off we went to D-Link (right across Landmark) and proudly showed the free stub :) We thought of just ordering rice (I mean, 16 pcs is enough for 4 people, right??) and bottomless tap water, but gallantry (and probably stagger-stares from the manager later) shoved us to order another viand, the half-chicken-something from the menu. hehehe
.. and to our horror amazement, we were served this:
Look closely!!!
The lumpia shanghai were sliced into 2, which is way way different from the coupon they gave out! Talk about deceiving marketing strategies!!
I know that, yah, the thing was for free, but they should portray what they will actually serve the clients!! Regardless if its half the lumpia shanghai or not!!! Hmf!!
No wonder, even at lunchtime, this restaurant has few customers. Tsk tsk.
.. and because I felt short-changed (though it was free hahahaha!), I trudged towards Landmark and bought myself some taro milk tea at Chatime :) Large please :)
Yummy!! The blend of taro and milk tea soothed my scratchy throat and was refreshingly good :9 Price though is at Php90.. so-so :)
Then again…
What am I to do with these stubs??? hahahahahahaha :p
Hhmmmm.. I'll use this on Sunday with Josh :) Josh who?? hehe
*hush hush*
Somewhere in Mandaluyong
12.37pm
Ambot. Sa mga ni.aging adlaw, wala na koy gana maningkamot sa akong dapat buhaton. Kuyaw lang kay di mani ako.. ug sa unang higala, ako syang g.huna.huna ug nganu man nawala ni.
Hapit na tulo ka tuig na nibalhin ko gkan sa pinakadakung tighimo ug gin. Nindot na akong kinahinumtang didto, ila gud kong gkuha gikan sa Sugbu para mobantay sa tibuok nasud kung nahi.unsa na ang mga pautang nila ug gabayan ang mga tao unsaon pagminos ani ug dili pud masakripisyo ang kalidad sa baligya. Nabuhi ko ug upat ka tuig didto, pero nasobraan guro ko, kay isa ka adlaw, nabantayan naman nako na naay isa ka uban na nitunga sa akong sinaw na buhok. Didto ko nakaingun, dis is it.
O basin pud sa pagkahilas ug nahan lagi mosaka dayon sa akong gtindugan, nidesisyon ko na mohawa na. Batod pa nako, kanus.a paman ko ma.asenso diri? Puro pa mga bata ang naa sa pwesto na ako ganahan. Of course, ako pud g.apil kung unsa ka lalom sa bulsa ihatag sa sunod na ako puntahan. hehe
Sa una, lingaw sya. Labinan ka, wala koy gbuhat ug puede pa ko motan.aw ug sine sa akong adlaw! hehe Naa koy lima ka tao pero wala gud miy gibuhat ug nidagan na sya ug unom ka buwan, na nagtunganga mi. Then, naka.ingun ko, this must be the life. Sayop.
Pagkaabot sa butang na dapat buhaton, hala! Nakaingun gud ko, wala mani sa tunga sa kuko sa akong gbuhat sauna. Naglibog ko kung malingaw ko o di. I said to myself, I'll give it time.. ug kanang orasa naabot na.
Tulo ka tuig.. tulo ka tuig na wala koy nakat.onan. And the worse part of it, ako gpasagdan ako kaugalingon na walay makat.onan. Nahurot na gud guro ako energy mao nisugot ko na, bahala na, as long as daghan mo sud na grasya sa ako account, lipay nako. Di diay. Lately, I'm getting frustrated sa sistema. Makahuna.huna ka na bisag akong amo, walay ma.contribute sa among gbuhat?? That shouldn't be the case, and I should look up to her, sa iyang nakat.unan and diri puro, sayop mana. Then tell me, how do we work around that because in the real world, it's not all about what's ideal, but how we can come up with ways to better suit what is existing, without prejudice to the rules of the road. I simply don't look up to her, unlike my previous mentors.
It's time.
*hush hush*
Starbucks Veranda
July 3. 10pm
… and so I find myself here having a cup of coffee mocha paired with a sumptuous cinnamon roll after a sweaty day at the sauna gym. hehehehe I wanted time for myself, to do some internalization and breather from the alcohol-packed weekend. Bad Hush. Hay.
I had work yesterday, yet still I went out.
Che.lu.
1am.
Mark had suddenly resurfaced and texted me whether I wanted to hang out. I've had my apprehensions with him when we went out, and needless to say, I didn't want to be alone with him, so I texted Carlo if Malate sounded good that night.
'Ate, para atang panay na tayo sa Malate ah. Baka pagsawaan tayo ng mga boys at mauumay sila sa ganda natin', he responded.
'Wag naman.. sana. hahaha o ano, game ka ba? Sunduin kita at 12.30am'
Mark was so persistent on my whereabouts, even if I told him that I was on my way already. Atat much lang, I can't blame the guy. hehehehe Yet it was getting on my nerves, that when I reached Chelu, I went directly to the bar and grabbed some Ice.
'O, saan ka na Hush?' Mark again.
'Inside. Bar.'
'Huh? Nandito ako sa labas nag.aantay sayo. Di mo man lang sinabi nakarating ka na'
'Eh di pasok ka. I'm here.'
'Wag na. Alis na nga ako rito. Nagmukha akong tanga sa kakaantay sayo at nandyan ka na pala.'
'Stop the drama and get inside'
Sheesh. Di pa nga tayo, nagger ka na, was running at the back of my mind.
'Alis na ako'
'Ok.' Duh. If he expects me to beg and run after him, no-way buddy. I have better things to do.
I turned my attention to the dancefloor. Man, I love this place was underrated. hehehe
Somebody pinched me on the stomach. Kris.
'Hey you', I said.
'Hey'
'Who you with? Boyfriend?' I'm not sure if he heard the sarcasm.
'No, friend from Iloilo'
Ok. I let him be. No need to fuss about him, give chance to others. hehehe
Back to the scene. They played good songs that night (including Pit's Give me Everything, which I belted out to my heart's content! hehehehehe) but somehow the overtime I rendered drained me, so I rested my back at the bar and bob my head to the beat. Pa-cute lang. hehehehe
Then out of nowhere, he came out from the crowd, smoldering from the dry ice effect, with the crowd parting to let him pass. hehehe Exagg, but he did stand out.
He caught sight of me, and I tried not to notice. Sh3t, he still looked good after all these years, 42, I think per Jeff, my mind rolled. Sh3t again, what was he doing here?? This is why I have been avoiding Bed and O-bar in the first place, he frequents those places and I thought he would never set foot in Chelu. Darn. I'd have to find another bar to avoid bumping into him in the future. Tsk tsk!
He passed by me without any acknowledgment. hehehe Good, good. Still, it nagged me that he didn't even say hi. Ano ba talaga gusto mo, Hush?? hehehehe I was battling myself.
Then he came back. He subtly touched my hands and smiled sheepishly.
'You', I said.
'Yes me', he laughed.
'What are you doing here?' I asked indignantly.
'Nag-wiwi'
Aba! Ginawang CR ang Chelu. hahahahahaha
'What happened to you?', Les asked (btw, I named him Pearl before after his place at Roxas Blvd, but heck, let's name him. hehehehe)
'Nothing. Same still. You sure you approached the right guy?' Yes, I'm playing the name game.
'Hahahhaha of course!! How could I forget a beautiful face like yours? You are Hush'
Again, my knees wobbled. Man, he had that effect on me. I gazed at him and his physique. Hmmmm… he seemed out of shape, but still he smelled the same and wore the same brand, AX.. or was that the same shirt as before? hehehehehehhe so mean. hahahaha
'You're drunk' I pointed out.
'I know right?? But still I remember you, Hush. It's what, like 2 years that we last meet? I kept a journal, you know'
Sorry, wrong. It was August 2010, but what's the point in arguing.
'I like your hair better now, Hush. It's neat unlike the long-cut you sported last time', he prodded and illustrated.
'Uy! I didn't sport that look! Must be some random guy you met!'
'No it was you!' he pointed out.
I noticed his hands were already at my sides and he did that weird macho dance. Darn.
'I've been looking all over for you' he continued.
O-oh. Jeff must have told him I hang out at his place.
'So where do you reside now, Hush? Still at Ortigas?'
'Nah, I left and settled in Mandaluyong.. sa loob', my lame effort at a punchline.
'Oh, I reside in the same area. Which part in Mandaluyong?'
'Huh? Aren't you staying at the Pearl of the Orient? You moved out?'
He grew silent.
'Where in Mandaluyong do you live?' I nagged. I thought, he was just around the corner, and I didn't know! Plus, I factored in that he frequents Boracay, as his business is there.
'I made it up. I still go home to the same place'
Ha! He thought I forgot. That kind of information never slips my mind. hehehe
'So will you finally relent and go home with me?', he pleaded.
He zoomed in suddenly and smacked me. Knowing me, I didn't allow this to pass without nibbling his lips! hehehehe Hmmmm.. his mouth still feels the same guava-taste. I tried again.. definitely guava! hehehe I wonder if there's a guava-flavoured smint, I would definitely buy, very addictive. hehe
'hmmm.. I'll think about it'
He rolled his eyes.
'I'll leave you'
Aba! This night is full of threats of walking out. Puttanesca lang.
'I'm with Carlo. I have to take him home'
'Have him take a cab'
Man, I was torn. I know this guy just wants s3x, but I can't resist his charms, sweeping deep into my.. uhm.. groin. hehehehe
I decided to go with Les at the expense of dagger-looks by Carlo.
'Sinabihan mo sana ako ng maaga para di na ako nag.antay ng matagal sa inyong dalawa!', was his departing words, while slamming the cab door later. Drama much.
'Let's go.'
I didn't realize Les was there.
'Where did you park. Tara, hatid kita doon'
'San kotse mo'
'There. You still recall my car, right?'
How can I not, gleaming in the dark was his black BMW.
'Ah yan ba, tara buksan mo na', intentionally pinpointing the Mazda3 parked besides it. He grimaced. I laughed inside. hehehe Yobong kasi.
We just made a U-turn to where Blake was safely tucked and convoyed towards his condominium.. and it happened.. yet again. (Don't know if it's a smiley or saddy-face I should place here)
He gazed at me fondly.
'Alam mo ba Hush, pinagseselosan ka ni Richard.'
Richard was his ex who turned out to be a schoolmate back in Cebu. Small, small world.
'Bakit naman? Isn't he over you'
I was smirking. Talaga lang. Mas bata at sariwa ata ako sa kanya! hahahahha
'Di ko alam, but I'm over him, you know. Kaw nalang baby ko..'
Hahahaha frankly, I only desire him because he is rich. Yes, he is good-looking, his body to die for, but still, what strikes him most to me is his wealth rather than his personality, the idea of showing him off to friends, yet, my conscience bothers me profusely. No feelings at all.. uhm, ok, I take it back. I only have feelings between my thighs for him. Hay.
And to think, I had wanted a sugar-daddy. Di rin pala.
*hush, hush*
4am
June 28, 2011
I am pleasantly surprised by my new lay-out :)
I called Roripuff last night to gossip on the latest activities in Cebu, especially those of my crushes. hehe Parang high-school teeny-boopers lang. We talked how one of them, RD, was already hitched (darn) and tried without success to scan through my FB comments I had on the picture of them together. Stalker lang. :p
Then I came across at how plain my blog looked, and what happened to your creative-director side of the deal?? hmf. He asked whether I wanted to reinstate my old look, with the candles stuff. I said, no, that seemed eons ago.
Worn out, the day got hold of me and I slept at 9.30pm!! I could not remember the last time I slept this early!!! hehehe
So now, I am out and about at 4am, reading my book, checking out other blogs and of course, viewing my own :)
I like my layout, Rori :) It depicts my lust love for armpits and the forthcoming postponed white party that I kinda prepared. hmf. Isip ko pa kung mag.drag ako. Trip-trip lang. hehehehehehehhe :p Punta ka na kasi rito para you can see why I am excited. hihi
*hush hush*
9.30am
June 26, 2011
somewhere in Mandaluyong
I woke up to the persistent ring of my mobile. I grappled blindly to where the sound came from. Sh3t! Who the h3ll calls me up at this deadly hour?? Well, literally the sun was up and about, but because I had black-out curtains in my room, it seemed like it was still 3am. hehehehe
I groaned. It was Shiela! Darn, it was not even a guy! Hmf.
'Unsa bayet??', I uttered.
'Magdungan ta mass? Dungan ta mass ha, then kuyogi ko adto Healthway sa Shang kay ghilantan ko gabii and pa-check-up ko', her voice reverberated over the loudspeaker.
'Leche flan, you woke me up for that??'
'Tulog ka pa?? I thought the white party last night didn't push through'
'Yah, it didn't so I wore black'
'Hahahahaha pumunta ka pa rin?'
'White party or not, rain or shine, I needed to go out. Yah yah, let's cut the chase and I'll accompany you to Healthway after hearing mass. You drive Blake. Now let me get some sleep'
'Hahahaha see you later bayet!'
I hung up. Then I tried to get some sleep. I couldn't. Sh3t! My head still aches from the 6 bottles of Ice last night. I rolled endlessly and covered myself up with my comforter, but still, my senses were wide awake! Hmf.
I checked my phone. Shiela's messages occupied most of my inbox. Wow, she was not only satisfied with messaging me, she had to call and wake me up! hmf again!
Then I saw Drew's message.
'Mahal, saan ka kagabi?'
Uhm.. I needed to gather my thoughts. I got out of bed and fixed myself some Lipton milk tea.
Think, think, Hush. I did went to Malate last night. I had planned to tag Drew along, but lately, I wasn't feeling much of his companion. I don't know. He calls me mahal and I call him the same, but still, the feeling is incomparable with the way I felt before with Marxus. It's not that intense, pampalipas oras lang.
I tried to recall what happened last night.
The streets were crowded and I intentionally parked Blake away from the main road so Drew won't be able to see that I was there. Yes, the white party was postponed (which disappointed me a teeny bit, because I fussed with the outfit I wanted to wear, white tank top, over capri denims and red stilletos and curling my Clooney-cut hair was no mean feat!! hehehehehehe :p), and I was only informed by Carlo around 11.30pm! Technically, he did texted me around 10pm, but for heaven's sake, I was having my beauty sleep!! hehehehhe Since my mind was already set for Malate, we pushed through with the plan, but instead, we both wore black :)
I was cautious not to stand-out from the crowd, but given that a lot still wore white that night, I can't help it :( We immediately proceeded to Chelu, exchanged beso-beso with Jeff and was pleasantly surprised that at 12.30am, the place was packed! Sea of men who wore red, white and black danced to the beat, plus factoring in that Chelu had already a 2nd floor!! My, my, business must be very very good :) (though I did wish that there was a balcony to look down to…)
Back to Drew. I carefully drafted my response.
'Dito lang ako kagabi sa bahay, mahal. I was reading the book I bought yesterday'
I inhaled deeply and anticipated his reply. I vividly remember scanning the crowd if Drew was there. I was bracing myself for some confrontation but thankfully, none happened. Only Carlo saw the guy he was dating at the scene, but that's another story :)
'Weeh. Di nga. Nakita ka ng mga kawork ko kaya'
'Huh? Saan?' Man, it's hard to lie, especially if you still carry a hangover. Darn.
'Sa Malate daw'
Hmmm… too generic. I might get away with this. hehehe
'Nge. Di kaya natuloy white party dahil sa bagyo.' Well, I am still sticking to facts.
'Yung kasama ko sa work, kasama nya mga tomboy, nakita ka daw nila sa Chelu'
Uh-oh. No wonder the dudes kept staring at me and one even tried to approach me. I thought they were just admiring me and was plotting ways to turn her down should she continued and beg for my attention. Hahahahahaha Assuming! hahahahahahaha :p
'Hahahhaha talaga? Galing naman nya. Nakita nya ako habang nasa bahay lang ako while reading my book!' Ok ok, this is partly true. I did read the book, before going to Malate! hmf.
'Nakasuot ka nga ng itim eh'
Tsk tsk! Time to divert the conversation. I am already at the hot seat.
'Eh kaw mahal, ano gawa mo kagabi?', was my lame retort.
'Napagod ako sobra kaya nakatulog ako ng maaga, mahal'
'Ahhh… di ka ba nagcelebrate for passing your examinations yesterday?? Sayang naman..' Now, it was him we were talking about. hehehe
'Hinde mahal eh. Sobrang na drain ako'
So there, we continued with other topics and forgot about his officemates seeing me. Come to think of it, I only met a handful of his officemates and really can't believe that they still recall my face-value, since it was just on one occasion that I got to do this. Am I that, uhm, gorgeous?? Weeeeh… malayo na sa kwento :p
I am not good at lying. hays.
*hush, hush*
