Bothered profusely

I've had a crush on him from the time I saw his picture from a common friend of ours.  The Aussie friend blatantly described him, oh kana sya, he is bayot uy!, mixing her Aussie twang with Bisaya.  Cute.  I mean the way my friend enunciated those words. hahahaha :)

I officially met him in BED (no, the club! well, I wish hehe) by February of this year.  He was  with a friend, who I initially thought was his better half, as Chantelle (Aussie friend) had mentioned that he was hitched.  I scrutinized his companion then, and remembered clearly exclaiming to myself, it was exaggeration that he was hot, he is not! hehehe  Turned out he was just a friend of the guy.  Then my eyes wandered over to the guy I saw on the picture.. ahhh.. my type.  Tall, chinito, fair-skinned, intelligent (CPA, love my own hehehhe), 23 years old (young! hehehe), lives in Mandaluyong (no proximity issues) and definitely gay. hehehhehe :)  I definitely like him.

It's not natural for me to add up guys on Facebook, but I was not able to resist. :) I clicked on his profile and devoured (??) all the information I could get my hands on.  He accepted my friend request and from there, we were constant chat mates every Sunday.  It was there that I subtly asked for his number:

Hush: 'Gimik this saturday, join ka!! :)'

K: 'Sa malate ba?  Kaka.gimik lang namin sa Palawan2 last night with Bogs'

H: 'Who's Bogs?'

K: 'hehhehe kala ko na introduce ko na kayo.  Yung BF ko'

Ahhhhh.. hmf.

H: 'ahhh oo nga.  Well text me if you want to join us. 0917 696 6969.'

K: 'ok. Will do'

He joined us that night, but what was ironic was, Aldrin bought along a guy he dated, and Ferns was with Vic, his then-boytoy.  So, it turned out that it was as if we were having triple dates, which I felt self-conscious about.  I didn't want him to feel that it was a triple date and tried to elude him as much as possible.  Hay.  I should have been sweet instead! tsk tsk!

I have always loved challenges, and the idea that the guy has a partner excited me to my very core.  Somehow, I sensed they were on shaky grounds, based on stories he tell, and the manner we exchanged text messages.. or maybe it was just my imagination.  Nevertheless, I restrained myself from flirting too much with the guy and even joined him and his boo on one occasion to Palawan2.  His boo is ok, pa.tweetums effect.  I distanced myself and seldomly texted the guy, unless he initiates first.  hehehe

Then, 8 hours ago, I saw the post above in his FB account, then all  sensual  feelings rushed forth and I was giddy.  I called him up (atat lang) and asked whether he was ok, and that he shouldn't worry coz he should know that I have shoulders to cry unto.  Very drama, actually, but I mean it. hmf!!  He wouldn't divulge the reason why he broke up with his boo, only vague statements about words spoken but not shown (tama ba, paninindigan sabi nya eh. ) and how he has been waiting for it for a year already and still nothing.

I called up Rori to seek for advise, and he said to give it time.  Maybe it's just a phase in their relationship (sh#t ka!!) and that they may still be able to resolve it (puttanesca!!), afterall, they have been at it for a year already (leche flan!).  Hmf. hmf. hmf.  I hate him, and yeah, those are words that I will heed, as much as I would love to go to his office and play nota, este, DOTA with him.  I will learn that game, I swear!! 

I am confused.  Hay.  But I promised myself that the next time he falls, I'll be there to catch him tenderly :) weeeh 

*hush hush*