Those who grew up in the 80s would recall that Lambada was such a hit! hehehe I became addicted to the song and could recall Rachel Lobangco (?) dancing to this beat. hahahaa I imagined myself dancing to one, actually, with somebody hunky besides me, of course! hahahaha
And to my utter bliss, JLo released her new single, which is frankly, Lambana-like! hehehe and the video is soooo cool, it beats Lady Gaga's born this way. hahaha Do I see some eyebrows raising?? :) Last time JLo released this kind of mix was way back 2000, Waiting for Tonight and now I am smitten again with JLo :) Pwetty, pwetty! hahaha
Hush, hush for now**
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Tangled Dreams
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| from the movie, Tangled |
Disney's Tangled does address my woes. It somehow lifts my spirit and transports me to another world that I could just be on my own. Weird. I know that it's fiction and I wouldn't dare go into criticizing the visuals, cinematography, musical score etc. I just want to express how the movie dawned on me.
The movie is something conjured from dreams, that these things don't happen in real life (duh) but somehow, it touches the very core of me. I wouldn't expect to meet a thief who will turn out to be my prince someday, that's so unreal, plus I wouldn't dare go near them also! hahaha But, but, but.. the dialogue the movie conveys is something else, something to ponder through, for me to digest and nibble on. And with the close of one chapter in my life, these lines smack me big on the face:
Rapunzel: 'What if it's not what I dream it would be?'
Eugene: 'It will be..'
R: 'What if it is?'
E: 'Then that's the good part.. you will get to find a new dream'
Hay. I need to move on.
Hush, hush for now**
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Geisha and Australian Bearistas
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| Geisha bearista hehehe |
What I am excited about is the Australian bearista that my friend Chantelle bought for me! :) He is sooo cute and she promised I'll get him by the end of this week. I can't wait and I am sooo giddy!! I'll update this blog his edition's number once I get hold of this bearista. hehehehe
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| Mr. Aussie bearista :) I ♥ :) |
Hush, hush for now**
Monday, March 14, 2011
Memoirs
3.39am
somewhere in Mandaluyong
These past few nights have left me sleepless. As much as I would like to put brakes on time, the clock continues to tick and I tread along, attending to Ex's family's needs, explaining to friends/acquaintances what transpired these past couple of days and the plans for the succeeding days, entertaining a guest, and doing my best at office not to let emotions get in the way of work.. but as night time beckons for me to go home, I'm hit with the cold reality that he is gone.. and I am back where I started. Alone.
I think to cope. I remember to treasure.
Lately, I have been trying to recall when our last movie date was, and what movie that was. All I can remember was we were at Shangrila that time, that I presented my Cineplex card and the cashier informed me it was expired already. The last time I used that card was when Shrek2 was shown. hehe That was a long time ago. We had shifted watching movies from Shang to MOA. I don't know why, definitely not because the latter's movie house is better. Maybe because Ex likes to roam about the shops prior to watching the movies, or that I like the long drive to get to MOA and catch up with him along the way. Maybe.
I recall our first movie date. He kept on reminding me then. hehe It was Startrek, he would say. I simply forgot. All I can muster was we were to meet after that night in BED. I had thought it would just be like any ordinary date, faceless. I didn't realize, he would touch my life.
I was just wearing my brown folded n hung shirt, shorts, cap and slippers. He was wearing jeans, Adidas shoes and his leather jacket. He had fixed his hair then. hehehe He would more than once narrate to me how he felt that day.. He had placed in great effort to look good on our first date and that I look plain. Hahahahahaha That probably singled me out from his fleet of dates as well :)
I think I was the first to arrive at the Cineplex, sat at one of the stools near the popcorns, and waited for him. When I saw his face, I was kilig. I was already counting pang-ilan trophy bf ko na kaya to? Shallow. I was at my prime then, so I can afford to dismiss him had he shown some faults. Again, shallow. I didn't give any clue that I was interested in him, hence the 'dress-down' effect, and even to this day, I would never tell him that.
That was May 10.
Bothered still, I scanned my older posts in FB and I did post my last movie date with Ex. It was the Rite, starred by Anthony Hopkins. I recalled I had wanted to post my review comments here but I didn't find time to do so. Time. That word again.
We had fun that night. I recalled we walked all the way from Shang to his place, and we simply talked. Talked about nonsense. About the unpredictable twist in the movie and it's possibility of it being true.. then we talked about our plans to move in after my contract expires. How we would like our place to be, a loft-typed condo so that he could still continue to practice his photography downstairs without disturbing me while I sleep. It was a cold night, but it felt good. It felt warm to be with him that night.
That was February 8. He left me March 8. A month.
I sooooo want to talk to him. I want to know if he is happy now, or is he lost.. Will candles light his way to wherever he is going? Coz if so, I'd light a million and one.. ;(
somewhere in Mandaluyong
These past few nights have left me sleepless. As much as I would like to put brakes on time, the clock continues to tick and I tread along, attending to Ex's family's needs, explaining to friends/acquaintances what transpired these past couple of days and the plans for the succeeding days, entertaining a guest, and doing my best at office not to let emotions get in the way of work.. but as night time beckons for me to go home, I'm hit with the cold reality that he is gone.. and I am back where I started. Alone.
I think to cope. I remember to treasure.
Lately, I have been trying to recall when our last movie date was, and what movie that was. All I can remember was we were at Shangrila that time, that I presented my Cineplex card and the cashier informed me it was expired already. The last time I used that card was when Shrek2 was shown. hehe That was a long time ago. We had shifted watching movies from Shang to MOA. I don't know why, definitely not because the latter's movie house is better. Maybe because Ex likes to roam about the shops prior to watching the movies, or that I like the long drive to get to MOA and catch up with him along the way. Maybe.
I recall our first movie date. He kept on reminding me then. hehe It was Startrek, he would say. I simply forgot. All I can muster was we were to meet after that night in BED. I had thought it would just be like any ordinary date, faceless. I didn't realize, he would touch my life.
I was just wearing my brown folded n hung shirt, shorts, cap and slippers. He was wearing jeans, Adidas shoes and his leather jacket. He had fixed his hair then. hehehe He would more than once narrate to me how he felt that day.. He had placed in great effort to look good on our first date and that I look plain. Hahahahahaha That probably singled me out from his fleet of dates as well :)
I think I was the first to arrive at the Cineplex, sat at one of the stools near the popcorns, and waited for him. When I saw his face, I was kilig. I was already counting pang-ilan trophy bf ko na kaya to? Shallow. I was at my prime then, so I can afford to dismiss him had he shown some faults. Again, shallow. I didn't give any clue that I was interested in him, hence the 'dress-down' effect, and even to this day, I would never tell him that.
That was May 10.
Bothered still, I scanned my older posts in FB and I did post my last movie date with Ex. It was the Rite, starred by Anthony Hopkins. I recalled I had wanted to post my review comments here but I didn't find time to do so. Time. That word again.
We had fun that night. I recalled we walked all the way from Shang to his place, and we simply talked. Talked about nonsense. About the unpredictable twist in the movie and it's possibility of it being true.. then we talked about our plans to move in after my contract expires. How we would like our place to be, a loft-typed condo so that he could still continue to practice his photography downstairs without disturbing me while I sleep. It was a cold night, but it felt good. It felt warm to be with him that night.That was February 8. He left me March 8. A month.
I sooooo want to talk to him. I want to know if he is happy now, or is he lost.. Will candles light his way to wherever he is going? Coz if so, I'd light a million and one.. ;(
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
When I see your face (pick-up lines Chapter 8)
May 9, 2009
Bed. 1am.
"San ka banda?", I texted.
"Sa may stage, I'm with friends", he responded.
We were to met up that night. After a month of being textmates, it was only then that I'd get to see him, as fate may have chanced upon us that night.
"Ok, puntahan kita dyan"
We became acquainted with each other via the defunct G4M. Time would erase my memory on who messaged whom, but my initial reaction when I saw his face was, "sh#@t! sya ata yung naka sayaw ko last February nung may nag-pick.pocket sa cellphone ko". Still, I entertained him, probably out of curiousity, plus he was gorgeous. He later would boast that he looked like Will Devaughn hehe
When I saw him, I felt backing out. He was surrounded by his friends (and he stood out from the pack) and I was intimidated. I summoned my courage and said hi. Aba! Nod lang ang napala ng beauty ko!! Dispirited, I went back to where I was stationed (near the aircon, matutunaw na kasi MAC ko, hehehe).
"Oh, san ka na?", he texted.
"I went back to my place. Papalamig ako, masyado mainit dyan sa dancefloor"
Ok was his only response. So I guess, he wasn't interested in me.
2.30am
The crowd was already in celebratory mode when I chanced upon this guy in front of me. He was swaying his hips in front of me, with blue frog taking it's toll on me, I began to respond. He turned around and we continued to dance.
Ralf: 'Hi'
Hush: 'Hiya!' (masyado ata napalakas hehe)
R: 'You're cute'
H: 'I know' (sh#t! ang yabang ko! hehe I was frustrated and I welcomed any compliment)
R: 'You wanna go to my place?'
H: 'Where?' His face was so near mine, I could smell the alcohol he drank.
R: 'Makati, kaw ba saan ka?'
H: 'Ortigas..'
Ralf was about to kiss me when my peripheral vision caught someone staring at me. It was he-who-ignored-me.
H: 'Sorry.. my boyfriend's back'
I left Ralf, taken-aback by my sudden change of heart. I hurriedly scurried towards him.
H: 'Hi Marxus. Nice to see you here!' (was my lame greeting)
M: 'Oh bakit di mo tinuloy paghalik sa kanya?'
H: 'With whom?' (was my pathetic response)
M: (pinpointing) 'That guy in shock'
H: 'Oh. THAT guy. He's nothing. Care to have some blue frog?' (effort to have that puppy-eyed look)
M: 'Smart move. Nag.aantay lang ako if hahalikan mo sya, then alis na ako'
H: 'Nah. I would rather kiss you'
He let me kissed him that night. That night I met my Honey. Marxus.
I never knew that after 20 months, he would leave me for good. We parted ways last November 8, but we remained good friends. He remained my constant movie-buddy, we would argue which movie to watch, often, it was I who relented to his requests (coz mostly I want to watch the Tagalog flick hehehe he was traumatized with Kimmy Dora).. I spent Christmas with him after that. We went up to Baguio again this January. He was supposed to be with me for the last Panagbenga, but he was already hospitalized. We were supposed to move-in together after my contract expires on April..
He often kidded, if he passed away, will I cry.. I would respond, no.. But events would cruelly twist to this day.. and my heart bleeds of his loss.. and I cry a thousand buckets that no amount of words could comfort.. I lost a partner today.
This is my ode to him. Bubhye na please… ;(
Hushkins, please can you say a short prayer for his safe journey? That would be very much appreciated..
Bed. 1am.
"San ka banda?", I texted.
"Sa may stage, I'm with friends", he responded.
We were to met up that night. After a month of being textmates, it was only then that I'd get to see him, as fate may have chanced upon us that night.
"Ok, puntahan kita dyan"
We became acquainted with each other via the defunct G4M. Time would erase my memory on who messaged whom, but my initial reaction when I saw his face was, "sh#@t! sya ata yung naka sayaw ko last February nung may nag-pick.pocket sa cellphone ko". Still, I entertained him, probably out of curiousity, plus he was gorgeous. He later would boast that he looked like Will Devaughn hehe
When I saw him, I felt backing out. He was surrounded by his friends (and he stood out from the pack) and I was intimidated. I summoned my courage and said hi. Aba! Nod lang ang napala ng beauty ko!! Dispirited, I went back to where I was stationed (near the aircon, matutunaw na kasi MAC ko, hehehe).
"Oh, san ka na?", he texted.
"I went back to my place. Papalamig ako, masyado mainit dyan sa dancefloor"
Ok was his only response. So I guess, he wasn't interested in me.
2.30am
The crowd was already in celebratory mode when I chanced upon this guy in front of me. He was swaying his hips in front of me, with blue frog taking it's toll on me, I began to respond. He turned around and we continued to dance.
Ralf: 'Hi'
Hush: 'Hiya!' (masyado ata napalakas hehe)
R: 'You're cute'
H: 'I know' (sh#t! ang yabang ko! hehe I was frustrated and I welcomed any compliment)
R: 'You wanna go to my place?'
H: 'Where?' His face was so near mine, I could smell the alcohol he drank.
R: 'Makati, kaw ba saan ka?'
H: 'Ortigas..'
Ralf was about to kiss me when my peripheral vision caught someone staring at me. It was he-who-ignored-me.
H: 'Sorry.. my boyfriend's back'
I left Ralf, taken-aback by my sudden change of heart. I hurriedly scurried towards him.
H: 'Hi Marxus. Nice to see you here!' (was my lame greeting)
M: 'Oh bakit di mo tinuloy paghalik sa kanya?'
H: 'With whom?' (was my pathetic response)
M: (pinpointing) 'That guy in shock'
H: 'Oh. THAT guy. He's nothing. Care to have some blue frog?' (effort to have that puppy-eyed look)
M: 'Smart move. Nag.aantay lang ako if hahalikan mo sya, then alis na ako'
H: 'Nah. I would rather kiss you'
He let me kissed him that night. That night I met my Honey. Marxus.
I never knew that after 20 months, he would leave me for good. We parted ways last November 8, but we remained good friends. He remained my constant movie-buddy, we would argue which movie to watch, often, it was I who relented to his requests (coz mostly I want to watch the Tagalog flick hehehe he was traumatized with Kimmy Dora).. I spent Christmas with him after that. We went up to Baguio again this January. He was supposed to be with me for the last Panagbenga, but he was already hospitalized. We were supposed to move-in together after my contract expires on April..
He often kidded, if he passed away, will I cry.. I would respond, no.. But events would cruelly twist to this day.. and my heart bleeds of his loss.. and I cry a thousand buckets that no amount of words could comfort.. I lost a partner today.
This is my ode to him. Bubhye na please… ;(
Hushkins, please can you say a short prayer for his safe journey? That would be very much appreciated..
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Mean Hush (pick-up lines Chapter 6)
Che.lu
2.18.11
1am
One month since I last went to Malate. One month! haha The planned gimmick to Palawan2 in Cubao didn't materialize as Fern's Aussie friend ditched us in lieu of his newfound love. 'Ganyan naman talaga yan si Gerard. Everything changes pag nakakita ng lalaki, even when we were in Australia'.
Whatever. I had a long day, 9am to 12mn of meeting and work. I wanted to drink, simply drink. We didn't want to spoil the night and proceeded to Malate. Malate, Malate, here we comç. ♪ ♫ ♪
Not so crowded tonight, I mused.
I was on my 6th Ice, when I noticed someone staring at me. He casually strode to some guys beside me (didn't know they were his friends), had a small chit-chat with them, and suddenly turned around to talk to me. Shocking! hahaha
Bong: 'I like you'
Hush: 'hahaha' (I don't, he looked old na banat)
B: 'I like your shirt. It's Chinese for love'
H: 'So your chinese ha. Ni haw ma?? hahaha'
B: 'You want some tequila? I'll buy tequila'
He ordered them and introduced me to his bestfriend, whose name left my mind immediately after the formalities. Duh. They were old. hahahaha I wanted to try how it feels like to be a pokpok. hahahahaha
Bong was talking to someone when the drinks arrived. Aba! To my mortification, he offered the drink to the guy! Puttanesca!
Ferns: 'Oh, I thought those were for you? Sabihin mo, bawiin mo! hahaha'
I stared at Bong, but he acted as if he didn't notice. Ganon.
I grabbed hold of Bong's bestfriend, and danced with him.
BF: 'Naku, baka magalit si Bong'
H: 'hmmm… how long have you been bestfriends with him?'
BF: 'Tagal na.' (smiling)
H: 'What if I tell you I prefer you over him?'
He pulled back and studied me. I smiled coyly. Peripheral vision would tell me Bong was staring at us. He was hesitating whether or not to approach us.
H: 'I want to kiss you' He obliged. Bong's eyes literally grew. hahahaha
Later.
B: 'Why'd you kiss my bestfriend?'
H: 'Oh. I thought you weren't interested in me. You gave my drink to that guy.'
B: 'Let's order another round!'
H: 'Hahaha'. I left him.
Later sa later.
B: 'I want to take you home with me'
H: 'Hahahaha' I ditched him. hahahaha
Mean him. Meaner me. :)
hush hush for now**
2.18.11
1am
One month since I last went to Malate. One month! haha The planned gimmick to Palawan2 in Cubao didn't materialize as Fern's Aussie friend ditched us in lieu of his newfound love. 'Ganyan naman talaga yan si Gerard. Everything changes pag nakakita ng lalaki, even when we were in Australia'.
Whatever. I had a long day, 9am to 12mn of meeting and work. I wanted to drink, simply drink. We didn't want to spoil the night and proceeded to Malate. Malate, Malate, here we comç. ♪ ♫ ♪
Not so crowded tonight, I mused.
I was on my 6th Ice, when I noticed someone staring at me. He casually strode to some guys beside me (didn't know they were his friends), had a small chit-chat with them, and suddenly turned around to talk to me. Shocking! hahaha
Bong: 'I like you'
Hush: 'hahaha' (I don't, he looked old na banat)
B: 'I like your shirt. It's Chinese for love'
H: 'So your chinese ha. Ni haw ma?? hahaha'
B: 'You want some tequila? I'll buy tequila'
He ordered them and introduced me to his bestfriend, whose name left my mind immediately after the formalities. Duh. They were old. hahahaha I wanted to try how it feels like to be a pokpok. hahahahaha
Bong was talking to someone when the drinks arrived. Aba! To my mortification, he offered the drink to the guy! Puttanesca!
Ferns: 'Oh, I thought those were for you? Sabihin mo, bawiin mo! hahaha'
I stared at Bong, but he acted as if he didn't notice. Ganon.
I grabbed hold of Bong's bestfriend, and danced with him.
BF: 'Naku, baka magalit si Bong'
H: 'hmmm… how long have you been bestfriends with him?'
BF: 'Tagal na.' (smiling)
H: 'What if I tell you I prefer you over him?'
He pulled back and studied me. I smiled coyly. Peripheral vision would tell me Bong was staring at us. He was hesitating whether or not to approach us.
H: 'I want to kiss you' He obliged. Bong's eyes literally grew. hahahaha
Later.
B: 'Why'd you kiss my bestfriend?'
H: 'Oh. I thought you weren't interested in me. You gave my drink to that guy.'
B: 'Let's order another round!'
H: 'Hahaha'. I left him.
Later sa later.
B: 'I want to take you home with me'
H: 'Hahahaha' I ditched him. hahahaha
Mean him. Meaner me. :)
hush hush for now**
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